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Wednesday, June 21, 2006

my parents ain happy..my dad is unhappy.. my mom is clearly angry.. n my sis is also scolding me..they think im wasting my life away...
well..i don care..
AHHHH

its this fuckin i don care attitude dats killing my life..
fuck it..

they tell me things.. they tell me wat i should do.. they tell me how i should live my life..
dat the world is this and that.. and we hafta do this and dat to survive...they tell me things..from their perception.. out of my context..dey don see wat i see... i don get wat they see..
i cant help but kip fuckin tellin myself we're born to juz one day die.. so we should juz b fuckin happy everyday n juz haf fun...we're so insignificant to the universe n i donno wat purpose we're here for..n till someone finds out abt dat..
we should all juz haf fun...
and everyone will tink im crazy...not bcoz its wrong but juz bcoz they don see wat i see...

i understand fully.. that i hafta study hard... n get gd grades.. so i can get gd job.. wid gd pay... to give my mom n dad a gd life n shit like dat....
i donno.. i don tink i can do it.... maybe one day.. the toto prize will b mine.. it makes it sounds so consoling..

if we all work so hard?? wat r we doing for the world??do we get sth?does the world benefit??
can we help to kip the world moving?? to kip the sun burning....n if everybody works so hard..
could it b that we're born to do dat..or its juz wat ppl tink we're supposed to do..if everyone works so hard..n i don..im an outcast...but if im happy n everyones working n we all die...hmmmmmmmm

i'hd choose to b the guy who plays hard n always haf fun..poor but always happy..n die young coz he ain got money for proper medical care...

coz i noe of ppl slogging so hard.. fallin sick.. using money for proper medical care juz so they can go work.. n work... n get the cash.. so when they are rich.. they start spending it on things they think makes them happy...i donno n eventually everyone dies rght..

i choose.. to b
the first..

den they say u cant b happy without money..quite true..my sis said dat..
i told her a job of pay abt 1k+ 2k will do..
then i remember abt havin to take care of my parents n its like FUCK!

if u do not stuyd hard enuff..coz u juz play n play..they say u r wasting ur life.. u pretty much don care..coz ur happy wid ur life...
then there r ppl who study so fuckin hard coz they don wan to b wasting their life away... so they work n work..till hair starts falling..n they work.. they forget bout sex n they work n work..
n when they get so stressed they die of heart diseases..
probably on the death bed they would regret workin so hard..
whos wasting their lives away..

aiya i give up la..
i'll live a dream now..
a singapore dream..
the toto fantasy

this blog entry is fucked up..
it makes mi wanna die so bad..
n i don wanna waste my life away..
so lets all go n play

_____lzhfuckedout